How Long?

Nothing can compare to exactly how I feel about you
Some days I don't care but others I would kill to be anywhere near you
The only person who I want is you after all I been through
This been going on forever..trust me it's absolutely nothing new


 Some would say it's an obsession,but I disagree
 I don't know why but I can't get enough of you
 I would say you are an addiction to me
 Thinking of you takes up all my time and it seems like thats all I do


Sometimes I wonder if we will ever work out
But then I think,it's possible because anything can happen
I talk about you forever and ever, every time I do hear your name all I can do it shout
All I know is I couldn't handle it if I never talked to you again


People will try to break anything we will ever have
Makes me feel like young love,no matter what age,will never have a chance
I push them aside because I know what your really made of
No matter what anyone says...I'll make sure of it we have the a chance


I believe age is a number not your life
I'm shallow..yes,but I can't help who I like and how old he is
These laws prevent you from finding the perfect person for you,all they care about is who is in your bed at night
And honestly my life is mine and his life is his...so please do us a favor and mind your business


I might be sure about us,but maybe he's not
I'll give him time,because I know that's what it takes
I think I'd do anything for him...wont let him all alone take the blame if he gets caught
Just know that our life and relationship may not happen...but it's up to us to make


"2 years too long for a crush..I wouldnt call it that anymore"


"I now have been in a situation where I can see how people say age is just a number,and it just is..nothing more..nothing less"


"Continue to try and find that special person because there's a chance they are looking out there for you too"

The Truth!

The sun's coming in, I can feel it, I can smell its Rays of warmth, cause I'm finally home.  Been struggling so long just to find me I finally will let my light shime all the way through me.

Saying goodbye to anybody that knew me. People say I changed, and things ain't me.
Sorry I left you behind for bigger & better things. Left all alone in this cold, cold world.

Survival of the fittist for a little little girl.  I may not be alone but that's how it feels.  Those things I call brothers are the only people I got Phillip,Devin, and Keon, yeah lol those the top three.

Made a couple mistakes in the past, but I'm fine with it. I know I had to grow, only a lil bit.  What you don't know is I can be alone without a friend in the world.  But who really wants to live like that? Not me!  

So from now on I'm all about my dreams and my bread.  Even though I'm 15, I'm gonna come up quick regardless.  Couple funny moments on the phone make me reminisce and laugh and now they forever will be cherished because I know now nothing lasts forever.

You know I was gonna end there but I just didn't.  I'm bad at sayin sorry cause no one listens. They don't deserve forgivness.  Not from me.  Yeah I cared, I care I can't believe that it'ss over for us.  Maybe not for me but for yall.  I wont try to fix it or say anything cause I did nothing wrong.

But imma Big Girl and I wont cry All I have to do now is say buh-bye, so buh-bye.  They really need to have a Bad Teen Girls Club...lol

But I don't know how to apologize.  I need to learn. It kills me that people expect me to be the bigger man, when I'm a little girl.  Yes I laugh at stupid ass stuff, even things that's not funny like falling down steps & dying (lol) Laughing is really my only medicine for pain.

The warmth of being back home will soon hit me, and I'm glad to say I'll be there soon !:)

"We live in a world where it's more okay to follow than to lead.  In this world being a leader is trouble for the system we are all accustomed to.  Being a leader in this day and age is being a threat.  Not many people stood up against the system we all call life"

"Ya'll dysexic gotta a girl twisted, Never shot a n*gga I don't get convicted. Cause if I say word ya whole squad getting lifted. What Up then ? N*ggas ain't saying nothing...SHUT UP THEN !"